Jagged holes, exposed nerves, purple acid pustule rashes, and enough novocaine to take down an elephant… If there is one thing I’ve learned over the years is that no matter how hard I try to do something like a ‘normal’ person, everything that can possibly go wrong with something will go wrong for me!
In July 2015 I found myself in a really bad place mentally. I had once again hit the bottom of that deep dark hole that is mental illness. I found myself sitting on my couch bemoaning the fact that I couldn’t afford to get the help that I needed. Then, in a rare moment of clarity, I remembered an unusual way to combat anxiety I had been told by a therapist.
It all started when we moved into our house. My mom had the kitchen cabinets torn out so that she could upgrade the kitchen, but as life would have it we had to move in before any upgrades were made. As a temporary solution she installed a counter top to hold up the sink and propped it up with two unsecured boards. As many of you might imagine this was a ticking time bomb of a solution.
While most people take their weekend getaways at sunny little B&B’s, recently I’ve taken to spending some nice relaxing weekends in the Mental Health Suite at the local emergency room. (why pay for an expensive getaway when there are much more affordable options available right in your backyard?) If I’m lucky enough I can even get someone to drop me off so I don’t even have to pay the extortionate price for parking! Sometimes I even get prescriptions for some fun mind altering drugs, and that is where this story begins…
I often find myself saying “What am I going to do?” or “I don’t know what to do!”. In my search for answers to these questions I have found myself reading a large number of self-help type books. They often serve to inspire me to action (if only for a short while). This is probably why I was so drawn to my latest read (more…)
As I have found in the past, when life gets really uncomfortable I am often driven to experiment with ways to combat depression that I had previously dismissed as completely impractical and possibly even ridiculous.
A few days ago a friend said something that sparked in me an idea for an experiment. It was something I had heard before but I had never given it a chance. Boy am I glad I finally did! (more…)