A lot of strange stuff happens in my life. Not often does a day go by that doesn’t contain some bizarre occurrence.
I often ask myself what it would feel like to have a day where something really strange doesn’t go on. I have a good friend that has mathematically determined that it is “statistically improbable” that all of the things that have happened to me could possibly have happened to one person.
I recently posted an article about how my mind’s way of defending itself against the craziness of my life is to look for the humour in it. I can take even some of the most mundane things in our life and by choosing the right wording make it seem larger than life.
Lately though my thoughts turn to wondering if my life really is any more “catastrophic” than someone else’s or is it just that I see my life through a different ‘frame’ than other peoples’.
Is there really a way to tell if your life is more messed up than someone else’s? I mean aren’t we all messed up in our own ways?
I had a discussion with my brother about birthdays and getting older and he was talking about how he used to pride himself on his memory and yet now he keeps forgetting things and I said “I think that’s part of getting old.”
I asked my aunt about something we talked about before and she said “maybe we had that discussion but I forgot.” When you live in an alcoholic family that also has severe mental issues any time that you gathered people together there was bound to be some ‘bad’ memories.
Maybe that’s why as we get older most people look back and reminisce about the “good old days” maybe forgetting the bad bits is our mind’s way of not overwhelming us with the fact that all of our lives had crappy parts?
If that is the case, I sure hope that my mind one day starts to forget the bad bits too…
~Elena <3
