I guess it’s that time of the year again, where all the traditions and dysfunctions of the “Holiday Season” rear their ugly heads. It is bad enough that we have all these unrealistic expectations that society places on us but we also place them on ourselves. (more…)
I once heard of a study that said something to the effect that for people to be sane they need to have physical contact with other humans every day. I don’t remember the amount of contact involved but I do remember thinking that there was no way I even came close to that. (more…)
When you grow up in what can only be described by the dysfunctional of families in town as the MOST dysfunctional family in town, you have to learn to search elsewhere for some sort of stabilizing influence. While I never really had a lot of contact with my Aunt, the contact I did have has had tremendous influence on my tenuous grasp of stability. (more…)
As usual my life has been a chaotic nightmare lately. As I was finishing up an emergency visit with my doctor the other day to discuss the follow up to an injury from work and the ensuing loss of that job and my concerns about my latest mental instability my doctor made a specific point to say “you need to be really proud of yourself for how WELL you have been dealing with all of this lately”. (more…)
Lately I’ve been noticing some disturbing symptoms which seem to point to the fact that I MAY be becoming what the kids refer to as “old”. (more…)
One of the pieces of advice that I have received numerous times over the years is that a pet will help my mental health. This suggestion was usually met with “uhh I can’t successfully take care of myself so how is it fair to bring some poor innocent animal into this mess?” (more…)
I guess everyone hits that point where they realize that maybe they are becoming old and out of touch. I think that maybe I’ve hit that point. I like to think that certain things should still be the way that they were when I was younger, the simpler times, when people seemed to still give a shit. (more…)
In July 2015 I found myself in a really bad place mentally. I had once again hit the bottom of that deep dark hole that is mental illness. I found myself sitting on my couch bemoaning the fact that I couldn’t afford to get the help that I needed. Then, in a rare moment of clarity, I remembered an unusual way to combat anxiety I had been told by a therapist.
As I have found in the past, when life gets really uncomfortable I am often driven to experiment with ways to combat depression that I had previously dismissed as completely impractical and possibly even ridiculous.
A few days ago a friend said something that sparked in me an idea for an experiment. It was something I had heard before but I had never given it a chance. Boy am I glad I finally did! (more…)